Inferior Feelings

You ever deal with someone in your life who constantly makes you feel inferior? Whether they do it deliberately, or not, it's...flat out horrible. I...have a friend, who I just...it's hard to put into words cause I totally haven't got it figured out myself, but I know I need to let it out, hence the blog. Anyway, yeah, it's like...they make me feel like I'm nobody basically, like everybody would rather know them than me. Another friend once told me mixing friends is a bad idea, and I agree now. I just think that some of the people I met, that I introduced this person to, like him soooo much better, and it makes me feel shitty cuz I'm like, hello, yea, I kinda knew you first. Now I KNOW not EVERYONE'S going to like me, and I accept that, but it's not like me & this friend met a person at the same time and they like them better. I knew them prior, and it's like, fucka Anthony, such-and-such is so much cooler, and that really pisses me off. I feel like just giving up on people cuz it seems like I'm never...good enough. I don't know. I'm constantly second-guessing myself, and making sure I say the right thing so shit like that DOESN'T happen. Maybe I'm coming across selfish, but is there honestly something wrong with just wanting to keep groups of friends separate? It's bad enough that I only have 2 or 3 REAL friends that all know each other that I can go to in Mount Vernon, so shouldn't I be able to have other people to go to that don't know my Mt. Vernon friends? I think that's pretty fair in all honesty, but, you know, life ain't always fair so I guess I gotta deal with this and just...keep it movin' along, right? Anyway, to anyone who might come across & read this, please let me know what you think on the subject, I could really use some opinions/help. Thanks :-)

Nothin' but <3,
~Anthony