E.L.M.

Exotic Lover Man.

Sooooo...there's a guy...lol. I met him through the wonderful Twitterverse, and he's like...awesome. I don't know what it is about him, but I have the BIGGEST little Twitter crush ever. I don't even really know him that well, but what I do know is just...close to perfection. He's nice, he's mysterious, he's good lookin' which hell let's all be honest up in here ain't hurtin' at ALL lol, he's just not like any guy I've talked to before, so it's also something new which is good. I can't help but smile half of the time we talk, or when someone brings him up. It's odd though, because I feel like I'm too deep into it, when it's really nothing, cause he doesn't even know (at least not from me!), and he doesn't live in NY, but you can't control how you feel right? I mean I'm not like OMGINLOVE with the dude, it's honestly just a crush, but like one of those school girl crushes where you gawk at everything the person does lol. Well...I'm just gonna go on with life, and let my inner school girl do her thang honey, cuz I am NOT complaining. Maybe one day I'll work up the nerve to tell him. ^_^

Nothin' but <3,
~Anthony

Fuck Bitches Who Don't Care

So the whole week I've been in a pretty fucked up state of mind, and it seems like the people I used to depend on, don't seem to give a shit, or don't understand. Everybody's caught up in their own stuff, and I'm stuck to drown in my own fucked up feelings. You know when you try & subtly, yet obviously, try to mention something to someone, and the only thing they can talk about is their fucking self? Or when you try to straight out explain that you're just pissed for no reason and someone doesn't believe you, or tries to pry for information that isn't there? I go through so much annoying shit on a daily basis, and I really don't bitch about it until it gets too much to handle. I'm a complex individual when it comes to my emotions and if I'm not taken care of the right way I get bitchy, fast. What really fucking kills me is the people closest to me KNOW THIS and yet they ignore it. You know what....fuck it. Fuck it all. Fuck people, fuck life, fuck tryna be a good friend, fuck it all. I'm so tired of TRYING TO be the good guy & all I do is get screwed the fuck over. I really just need to surround myself with new people because honestly I'm just not feelin' the people I fucks with no more. I just want to fucking cry and eat my problems, and my shitty fucking life away. It's not like anyone genuinely gives a shit, and if they do, they have a fucked up way of showing it. Real motherfucking talk. So with all that bullshit said, and let out, fuck you, have a nice day, and leave me the fuck alone. Take it how you want it.

Nothin' but...yea...,
~Anthony




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