Everything to Me

The most AMAZING Monica has released her new single from her new album coming out later this year, it's called "Everything to Me" and I LOVE IT! Which is weird cuz I have no one to make me feel like that but OH WELL lol, check it out!

Can't Keep Up!

OMG it's been a while since I've posted...I knew I couldn't keep up with this like I said lol. Anyways let's see...well...Saturday was my Grandfather's funeral mass at a church up in Connecticut...it was really, REALLY nice. I got to see family who I haven't seen in a while, and no matter how anti-social i am/was I still love them! Even though it was a sad occasion, it was still a good time to me, cause I don't see my family often, so it's nice to see them regardless. Yesterday was...pretty lame, just sat around the house all day & did nothing, like always, I'm such a loser lol. Today we went back to CT for the burial service. My poor mommy...she was a wreck, as was my uncles. It was a really nice service tough, & both times we went out to eat at some restaurants that were owned by family members, & the food was EXCELLENT! ^__^. Last week, since I didn't blog all then, was okay, I was kinda depressed all week but I'm over it now, I don't know what was wrong with me but...it was messy. Very, very messy. OH OH OH, I got my ID in the mail today and umm....yeah....i hate it! I want a do over! The picture was horrible, I looked like a serial killer/my father, which isn't a good mix! LOL. So I wanna go back to the DMV and spend another $13 to get it taken over, I can't live with that picture lol. Other than all that, nothing's really been going on. Tomorrow, Ebony's coming over, & I'm going out to Cross County (hopefully) with Demetrius on Wednesday, so we'll see how that goes. I guess that's really it so...I'm off of here, 'till later!!


~Anthony

Ignorance

Here I am...back again. I was in my bed just now...and started to get like...really depressed, so I thought, "Hey, why not go blog?" lol. My plans for today were canceled, Ebony's still babysitting & don't know when she's gonna be able to get off, that sucks doesn't it? Yeah it does! I really wanted me some Pizza Hut!! Oh well, not like plans ever stay solid anyway, no tea no shade to my friends. Anyways...you ever have someone in your life that always seems to try to be better than you? On purpose? I really feel that way about some people sometimes, and it pisses me off. What's the point in trying to prove you're better than somebody else? It just makes you look pathetic, in my opinion. Anyway, I was watching TV, & The Rosa Parks Story was on again, & I saw a commercial about this show coming on the Food Network with some Mexican lady, and it took me back to my last blog about the ignorance in people, and it made me realize that even people I know are like that. This is in no way to offend the people I'm talking about if they read this, just an observation. For example, Ebony. She really doesn't like Mexican people...for like...no solid reason. They creep her out, like she can't be near one or anything. Also, she says she has no problem with LGBT people, which is surprising, cause she's Jamaican, but yet, she says things like "he's too gay" or when she calls me a fag when I'm talkin' about a guy I might really like or something. So to me, it just shows that she's still got some of that homophobia. One day she told me sexuality can be a choice, and I told her straight up it was ignorant. You can't choose who you're attracted to, it just happens. It just...bothers me, that we're such great friends, and she still says things that piss me off, but that's life...right? You're not gonna agree with every single thing somebody says. Ignorance & obliviousness are probably the two things that annoy me most in life. Especially if they're combined in a person, but I think I'll save that for another day. As for now, I''ve pretty much accomplished what I came here to do so...until next time! <3


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Another day...*slight rant*

Well...here I am...another boring day. Life really ain't it all cracked up to be! This weekend was okay, I spent some time with Ebony & Demetrius on Saturday. We just kinda chilled and watched a movie, same ol' crap. Yesterday was bleh, just sat on the pc, & around the house. I did start taking some GED practice tests online though. Turns out I'm not as ready as I thought I was. I really need to find me someplace that offers classes, or something. Being outta school for so long really does fuck with your head. I thought I woulda known most of the stuff, well I did, I mostly made stupid mistakes cause I was kinda rushing, like I always do. That was my problem in school, I was lazy, & I rushed through things. Well, anyway, hopefully I get better at these things so I can pass the actual test.
Last night I was watching The Rosa Parks Story on BET with Angela Bassett, who is a PHENOMENAL actress might I add, and it made me realize how much I really HATE ignorance, like how could people seriously sit there and have so much hatred for people who just have a different shade of skin? What's the problem? It makes no difference. It's a pigment, nothing less, nothing more. Happy Martin Luther King Jr. Day by the way. I was gonna go around and jokingly say Happy Black People Day, but I thought people might get offended, because I'm "white", so I changed my mind. Anyways, back to the movie & such, yeah, it REALLY annoyed me how ignorant people were, and still are. I think racism, or any discrimination is completely immoral, but at the same time, I'm not a huge fan of "white" people myself, but only the ones who are still stuck in the mentality that "black" people are less of a people than anyone else is. I use the terms "white" & "black" loosely because, in reality, nobody is "black" or "white". It's practically impossible to be either of those actual shades/colors. Well enough about that, cause I think I made my points, and I could probably go on forever coming from a bisexual "white" man myself. In the meantime, I'm sitting around waiting for Ebony to finish babysitting, we're supposed to go out to Pizza Hut in New Ro later, but I'm not feeling too hot, hopefully I'll get over that, cuz they're food is bomb! lol.
My mom's been doing okay after my Grandfather passed, but I know it's just an act. She's probably a mess inside. I still feel horrible about not being all upset about his passing but...it's not something I can change. Can you blame me for not being close to my family? I never was, I was always the shy little one who never really talked to anybody. I guess I can't really do anything but be there for her, which I absolutely am! I love my mother to death, I'm such a momma's boy :-).
Well...I guess that's about it for now...not much else to talk about that I can think of. Write you laters!

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R.I.P. Grandpa

Well today my grandfather, on my mothers side, passed away, around 1:15AM. My grandmother on her side passed in April of '09. I really don't like when my family members pass, because I was never really close to them, so I feel like a real asshole when I'm not around crying over their death, don't get me wrong, I'm upset, I just don't show it. Is that bad? I don't know...it's just...weird. I only cried at the mass we had for my grandmother when she passed, I think cause the whole church element got to me, I'm not used to it, plus everyone else was crying. Anyways, Jennifer's baby got pneumonia today, and he's not even a month old. I was so freaked when she told me, cause I know how horrible she must feel, today was supposed to be her daughter's 3rd birthday party, but she ended up in the hospital with her new-born son. Sad situation. That's my best friend since 7th grade & we've been through hell, back to earth, back to hell, & right back to earth, those are my God-children mann!!! On top of that, the year has just been straight up crappy. I found out I can't take my GED test until after June because the class of 2010 has to graduate since I was supposed to graduate with them (i think). Hopefully I can take some classes or SOMETHING cuz I'm starting to feel like a bum ass sitting around all day in my momma's house & I'm bout 2 be 18. I been getting in arguments with Demetrius again lately. I don't wanna get into it, cause I really don't know what to do with him anymore. Old feelings are starting to slowly creep back & I'm tryna ignore them the best I can!! Then Darryl is tryna come back into Ebony's life & I don't know how to feel about that cause all the bullshit he caused, but I'm the type of person who forgives (way too easily) people. I'm not feeling too good either, my tummy hurts! Well I think that's about all the writing I can do for now...

~Anthony


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Now playing: Fantasia - When I See U
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*SIGH*

UGH, I knew I wasn't gonna keep up with this thing, I'm gonna try & write a lot later tonight though when I have serenity.

Good Morning / First Post

Good Morning! OMG last night was...hilarious. I was on Twitter for a good 2 or 3 hours talking/fuckin' around with these people I met from watching this guy Alonzo Lerone's BlogTV sessions, and it was too much fun. I didn't get to sleep 'till like 3AM. It's weird because literally right before I got on Twitter I was just feelin' really...upset-like. I even shut my phone off after my best friend was supposed to call, but I just started feeling real crappy. Gotta thank them peeps from Twitter for cheering me up, I needed it. Well anyways...my phone woke me up this morning, it was Jennifer. She's lucky she just had that baby or I woulda punched her in the damn stomach for callin' me so early, she know damn well I don't be waking up 'till lke 10 LOL. So I gotta go look up info for her later about shelters and all that jazz. Demetrius said we was gonna try & come over today...hope it happens, I'm bored as hell & could use some company, even though I got OD chores to do, but I can multitask...I hope. Well, anyways, guess I'll go now...I'll find SOMETHING to talk about later, trust & believe lol.

~Anthony

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