"Man of My Dreams"

Today I went back to group. It was a good day. Paul is such a cool guy, really nice. Other than Demetrius, the other dudes there are...well honestly...I don't care for them too much. I always had a feeling Andre never liked me, ever since he came 2 my house w/ Anthony & them, but he said he didn't the first week. For some reason I don't exactly believe him. I don't know why, I mean, I don't have a problem with him, but I just don't see myself getting too friendly with him. It could be cuz, honestly, I have a bit of resentment towards him. Reason shall not be spoken. Anyway, the other dude Lenny, is straight up WEIRD. He has a major crush on Demetrius, & he always like, walks with me & Demetrius when we leave, and feels the need to stay with one of us the whole time. I mean, if dude got a crush on me, that's cool, I'm not into him, but it's cool. He keeps asking me if I like him and I'm like sorry but no, he's not my type. Which brings me to my next subject lol. We did this...exercise, I guess you could say, where we just picture the "man of our dreams". Now let me tell you...I've never really had a specific "type" exactly, so it was a little difficult for me, but when I got into it...LAWD. I mean Paul was getting into DETAIL cuz he would be like "is he white or black" "is he tall or short" etc etc. So my man was around 6'2, light skinned, had braids, either Caribbean or Puerto Rican/Dominican, muscular, not too much, but like...just right, had a real masculine swagger to him. Kinda somethin' like that lol, or like my Twitter crush omggggg, he's so cute, and nice, and great, and omg I'm rambling hahaha. Lemme say if I woulda been listening to somethin like Afrodisiac while I had that image in my head, chiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiile, I woulda needed some tissue LOL. Oh & his sex was absolutely mind-blowing, in my head lol, but anyway, it was a really good day there today. I mean, it's always cool there, but today was especially awesome haha. I really like going there, it sucks next Friday is the last session. Oh oh oh, I applied 4 a job up at a new CVS that just opened near my house, Lawd I hope I get this job. I gotta start makin' calls about GED classes, cuz I'm going outta my mind in this house all day! I'm still feelin' some type of way about...the unnamed friend, from my last blog. I don't know what's my issue, but it's getting to me more & more, and I'm really tryna stop it. I wish I could just be friends w/ him, and be satisfied. Whatever I guess...I'll get over it with time? *mind you it's been going on two years now*. I don't think I have much else to say tonight so...on that note, goodnight! lol.

Nothin' but <3,
~Anthony